half personal half craft

I'll do the craft part first I guess so everyone who doesn't want personal can stop reading eventually. I have done 5 hand-dyed yarns now and am really thinking about selling them, I've talked to someone about it but if it falls through then I guess I don't know (has to do with the personal stuff so I won't say). I knitted a hobby horse out of the Knitted Gifts book, which is an awesome book but I don't think there's anything else in it that I can do right now. I'm still slowly working on a couple of scarves but I doubt they'll be done by the time it gets cold, maybe next winter. I'm just not feeling it.


So here's my personal part. Stop reading if you'd like I won't feel offened. I promise. I just feel like I'm falling back into my depression again and I'm fighting with everything to keep it from taking over my life like it once did. I'm fighting tooth and nail with my self everyday but I feel myself wearing thin. I can't even entertain myself with knitting or anything like that right now and that's bad. I have been trying to get life set up, to try and bring in some money through my hobby so that I'll have something to spend on new projects, I've tried a couple of times to get a job somewhere I'll enjoy, or even just volunteered so that I could get out and do something but it's not working. Maybe ... I don't know. I don't want to get too deep and personal into everything cause I don't know but it's just getting hard. I feel frustrated half the time and I don't have a release that I want to do right now. Nothing gets me by, I'm not a mean person but I feel angry and I don't want to be mean and I try not to but I just don't know. I do know that it's nothing Jordan did, I'm perfectly happy with him, it's just a chemical imbalance I've been fighting over half my life. I hate it because things can be going so well, better than they are now, and it just happens. Whatever though, I'll stop ranting. Enjoy you're day people. Peace out.

More Stuff/ amazing LYS

Well, it's been long enough. But life happens. I have gotten into dying my own yarn more and absolutely adore it. I just cannot describe how much fun it is to have this plain boring yarn turn into something gorgeous (no I'm not humble about that) come out of it. I have been thinking of spinning, made a drop spindle (maybe), and found some WONDERFUL Alpaca roving at Wool 'n' Cotton that was raised in Christoval. I met the woman that raises them and she is fantastic. Just a totally nice down to earth woman, she seemed pretty funny too. Not to mention how awesome the shop in general is, plus the woman who owns it is just fantastic too. The three of us went into the shop before Jeyton's Dr appointment on Tuesday to kill some time and we almost killed too much. Judith is just darling. While browsing around she offered Jeyton a cookie (cracker to him) and put on a pot of coffee for Jordan. There was tons of fabric and other sewing/quilting supplies along with the gorgeous yarns and roving's. Most of the yarn that I looked at was made right here in Texas, which is pretty cool in itself. Okay, okay I'll stop making you jealous about how fabulous it is. On to Jeyton's Dr. appointment. He got two shots so he wasn't happy, plus it was about 2 and he hadn't had his nap (which is usually about 11). Any who, we told them how many words he says, which we have figure to be about 40, FORTY words. He's not even two yet. The Dr and nurse were dumbfounded and told us that most 18 month olds' only have a 15-20 word vocabulary and 24 months have about 20. I mean wow for Jeyton. Plus he's putting two words together (hot dog, hot food, good dog, right there) which most 18 month olds' don't do. Our son's a flipping genius! The only thing he lacks on still is his weight. I can see how that works because he eats ALL day and NEVER stops moving. So it's gonna be hard for him to gain much weight at all. I suppose that's all right now. I'll try bs-ing again later.