Life is what happens when you're trying to finish things

So, I suppose it's time for my monthly post (giggle giggle), I should have been posting more, then maybe more would have gotten done. In the past month I have: Set up a class to teach the Hobby Horse, Written out my first pattern (I did the project then wrote the pattern out which wasn't that bad cause it's simple), started to try to do my second pattern, both are crochet scarves, I'm working on a scarf for Jordan that will in essence be my own pattern (seeing as I'm not looking at anything to do it, just winged it and am liking it so far), I completed two hobby horses (the lonely pink one in Judith shop for a look into the class and another blue one personalized for a friend of the family but will explain that in a bit), am trying to start a Christmas present for Jordan's sister but have found out that apparently my gauge is way off so I don't know what to do about that but will go in more detail in a bit, I celebrated my 22nd birthday and my dad's wedding anniversary, I'm about to house sit while my parent's go see my sister in Hawaii (lucky them), then there's cleaning house, dealing with ranch work, our truck needing to be fixed and having to drive the car (oh but thank goodness we went and got the truck today, after over a week in the car), realizing this is a complete ramble by now so I should insert a period. WOW. Then there's always the baby, who has gotten more and more aggressive over the past couple of months but I guess it's about time. He's just too much, but in a semi good way. He's a flirt and just too darn cute for words. Trying to potty train himself (kinda) so we need to get on that ship too. Oh boy, just when I thought life was settling down. And we started the knitting guild for San Angelo the other day, which will be my saving grace. All the women that I've talked to in the group have just been wonderful I don't have an unkind word against any of them. Anywho, the hobby horse I did for the friend I personalized by putting the grandson's initials on the back of the head and it turned out darling. I'm just so impressed with that pattern. I did that one using magic loop, my first time, and didn't even use a stitch holder or anything (I needed the challenge at that time). I am now a HUGE fan of the magic loop method just FYI. But then to make things weird I try to gauge swatch the gift and it says with a sport weight yarn on size three needles I need 24 sts and 36 rounds for 4", well that should even out to about 6 sts an inch right? Well I was coming up with 9 but I, for some reason, could not come up with this gauge to save my life. I guess I knit WAY too tight. I wonder how big the horse would be if I check my gauge and adjusted my needle accordingly because I'm using the size it calls for in the pattern and never checked it (why would I it's a horse). Now that I finally got the first pattern written out I can now finally start working on my second crochet scarf project, do the scarf for Jordan, make some soap for a woman I met, clean the house, watch the kid, juggle three chainsaws while riding a unicycle playing the violin. But I am not complaining, I need the extra motivation and this is definitely not boring so I love it. For those interested in the class it'll start the 26th of September and there will be three classes, you can call Judith at Wool 'n' Cotton for more information. Her number is on her website which is linked to a couple of blogs back. Enjoy your day!

half personal half craft

I'll do the craft part first I guess so everyone who doesn't want personal can stop reading eventually. I have done 5 hand-dyed yarns now and am really thinking about selling them, I've talked to someone about it but if it falls through then I guess I don't know (has to do with the personal stuff so I won't say). I knitted a hobby horse out of the Knitted Gifts book, which is an awesome book but I don't think there's anything else in it that I can do right now. I'm still slowly working on a couple of scarves but I doubt they'll be done by the time it gets cold, maybe next winter. I'm just not feeling it.


So here's my personal part. Stop reading if you'd like I won't feel offened. I promise. I just feel like I'm falling back into my depression again and I'm fighting with everything to keep it from taking over my life like it once did. I'm fighting tooth and nail with my self everyday but I feel myself wearing thin. I can't even entertain myself with knitting or anything like that right now and that's bad. I have been trying to get life set up, to try and bring in some money through my hobby so that I'll have something to spend on new projects, I've tried a couple of times to get a job somewhere I'll enjoy, or even just volunteered so that I could get out and do something but it's not working. Maybe ... I don't know. I don't want to get too deep and personal into everything cause I don't know but it's just getting hard. I feel frustrated half the time and I don't have a release that I want to do right now. Nothing gets me by, I'm not a mean person but I feel angry and I don't want to be mean and I try not to but I just don't know. I do know that it's nothing Jordan did, I'm perfectly happy with him, it's just a chemical imbalance I've been fighting over half my life. I hate it because things can be going so well, better than they are now, and it just happens. Whatever though, I'll stop ranting. Enjoy you're day people. Peace out.

More Stuff/ amazing LYS

Well, it's been long enough. But life happens. I have gotten into dying my own yarn more and absolutely adore it. I just cannot describe how much fun it is to have this plain boring yarn turn into something gorgeous (no I'm not humble about that) come out of it. I have been thinking of spinning, made a drop spindle (maybe), and found some WONDERFUL Alpaca roving at Wool 'n' Cotton that was raised in Christoval. I met the woman that raises them and she is fantastic. Just a totally nice down to earth woman, she seemed pretty funny too. Not to mention how awesome the shop in general is, plus the woman who owns it is just fantastic too. The three of us went into the shop before Jeyton's Dr appointment on Tuesday to kill some time and we almost killed too much. Judith is just darling. While browsing around she offered Jeyton a cookie (cracker to him) and put on a pot of coffee for Jordan. There was tons of fabric and other sewing/quilting supplies along with the gorgeous yarns and roving's. Most of the yarn that I looked at was made right here in Texas, which is pretty cool in itself. Okay, okay I'll stop making you jealous about how fabulous it is. On to Jeyton's Dr. appointment. He got two shots so he wasn't happy, plus it was about 2 and he hadn't had his nap (which is usually about 11). Any who, we told them how many words he says, which we have figure to be about 40, FORTY words. He's not even two yet. The Dr and nurse were dumbfounded and told us that most 18 month olds' only have a 15-20 word vocabulary and 24 months have about 20. I mean wow for Jeyton. Plus he's putting two words together (hot dog, hot food, good dog, right there) which most 18 month olds' don't do. Our son's a flipping genius! The only thing he lacks on still is his weight. I can see how that works because he eats ALL day and NEVER stops moving. So it's gonna be hard for him to gain much weight at all. I suppose that's all right now. I'll try bs-ing again later.

Knitting Backwards and some more stuff

Well I learned a new trick tonight, knitting backwards! Who's ever heard such a thing!? I saw something about it when looking at entrelac (or whatever) so I was like hey what's that? Looked it up and found an easy (for me) tutorial about it on knitty (which is GREAT if you've never been there) knitty's tutorial I hope that works. Any who, the shirt I'm knitting is from Knitty too and I don't really remember what it's called. I'll update that later. anyways, I'm going along knitting my shirt, find that tutorial and decide I should try it. Instead of being logical and starting a quick sample swatch I just start trying it out on my shirt. Could you have imagined how bad that could have ended up if it didn't work for me. Like if I'd have messed up somewhere? BUT, to my knowledge I picked it right up and i love it cause I hate to purl. :( Now to get rid of it completely ;) In other life news I think it's time to cut my nails, just kidding although it would be smart cause I keep typing numbers, but seriously though Jordan found a gun he likes and wants and that fits him. Now I guess that's not as exciting to everyone else but it's been forever since he's done that. But then again he misses a gun that he recently got rid of so he may get this one and another in the caliber he got rid of. Whatever though, no point in trying to fight about it. It gets deer meat in the freezer and you can't beat that with any beef/chicken/pig whatever else out there. Oh it's so good. But I digress, he is trying to find a job guiding hunts which would rock out for him since that's his passion and he knows so much about it. I was bored the other day and instead of finding new patterns I found myself looking at guns/hunting info. God forbid Jordan ever finds out about that. just kidding, kinda. I swear everyone that goes into the local (good) gun shop is going to know who we are by the end of the summer. That's great huh. I guess that's it right now. go to sleep.

Stuff

Okay okay so I didn't get around to posting pictures... I just don't know enough about this blogger thing to know how to put in pictures other than with html BUT I don't feel like figuring out where to upload them online so I can do the coding to put them down where I want them. I used to be real good at HTML and played with it all the time, even to the point where I almost made my very own website but alas, I didn't. I like the blog aspect of things and prefer this one to my MySpace one even though I'm pretty sure that NOONE reads this one... it's so lonely in here. hello hello hello is there anybody in here, just nod if you can hear me... But I digress. I have started trying to knit a tank top and it's going along just fine. Last time I tried knitting a shirt it was actually a sweater and I Hated the yarn. So it's about 4/7th of the way done. I don't know where that fraction came from but whatever. I have been making stitch markers which are so awesome, I'm testing them out with this project. They are working! Uh, I went to my parents house for the 4th and we had fun. My aunt was there and I like her but don't get to see her much. I don't know why. anywho I'll keep you (whoever you are, introduce yourself to me) updated on my progress of everything. Peace out!

time and where does it all go?

So here's to life. Oh there's so much going on! I have really been on the ball with making stuff. I have made like 6 different bikini tops trying to figure out which one I liked the most and truth be told I don't fully like any of them. My future SIL had her baby the other night and she's too cute. I made her a hat/blanket set out of the crochet version of Stitch and Bitch that I totally adore. I made that little hat that looks like a flower which I got the pattern from http://suzies-yarnie-stuff.blogspot.com/2007/03/tulip-cap.html (I doubt that's clickable) and I also made some of the Go Green market bags from her site. uh, I've made her a head band too. It's sorta out of Crochet Today but I had made a few changes to it. I crocheted me a shirt, a ton of sponges, some necklaces, hats, pretty much just a ton of stuff. I have now branched out to making some bead work. Which I found out I totally love too. Poor Jordan won't know what to do with me now. Speaking of him I feel totally bad for him because he got a Tikka T3 I think. (which is a really good gun brand) in a caliber he's been wanting for a while (25-06) and it did not shoot worth anything. Turns out that the stock on it was loose. Now that he got it tight again he doesn't want to shoot it anymore (when he first was shooting it it left a bruise on his shoulder). Because of that, and the loudness of it (since it has such a short barrel on it) he's looking for a replacement. Well the problem there is that he has a really long length of pull (I guess you'd still call it that) because he has long arms so not many guns that would sit comfortably on the Average Joe do on him. We've been going crazy trying to find him one that's suitable and will not be too heavy to carry hunting (he doesn't like to sit in blinds because it's not as sportsman like). It's been a blast! Not even sarcastic like. I've learned to enjoy it until Jeyton gets fussy. I have even learned a bunch about hunting and guns in general. Look at me be well rounded. I keep forgetting about my blog so I'm going to try to post like once a week or something. I got some apparently vintage Dawn Odyssey yarn. It's six skeins they came in an unopened bag and everything. I have no clue what to do with it. It smells like moth balls though :( which makes it even harder to find something to make. I thought about a shawl and hoping the smell comes out when I wash it. But I don't know if I want to knit it or crochet it. I want to make this blog fun and something that people would read but I don't know how I'll go about that. Oh and we also had gotten a concealable Kel-Tec hand gun but I have a bad wrist and it hurt when I shot it. So we have traded it for a small Bersa and I haven't shot that one yet so I don't know how it'll work out on my wrist. I don't know what else to talk about I'll try posting some pictures later. Peace out

Update

So I haven't been here in awhile... not like anyone really reads this thing anyways. Well anyways, Jeyton has like 9 teeth right now... the eight front ones and one coming in in the back. He's walking so sure of himself now, going everywhere and getting mad when held. I'm sitting here this morning watching the news about this flu thing going on and yesterday I was told that my future MIL's mother's pharmacist said that there are two cases in town... and that startles me a bit but why wouldn't it be in the news? Are they "protecting" us from freaking out or would they logically want to tell everyone so that we don't go out and get ourselves contaminated? Whatever though. Uh on the other hand I've been crocheting like crazy, made my own bikini pattern pretty much but I'm not thrilled with it quite yet. I made one for said MIL... no comment but it's SO cute! I'm proud of how it turned out. I haven't been feeling tip top here lately, I almost feel the need for my therapist again but money is tight so I'll have to find another way to help get me out of this... oh the Joys of Depression. I have a friend who had a baby here recently and while she was pregnant the dad abused her. I was so proud when she left him but now apparently she's back with him and I don't get it. I understand letting him be in her life (to an extent) but why get back with him? What's the probability that he's going to do the same thing again? I cannot condone her behavior so I don't know what I'm going to do. A real man doesn't hit his woman. He should treat her right, especially when she's the mother of your child. I've been busting my butt cleaning the house and Jordan is supposed to be helping me... but he has class and work out here on the ranch so I'm trying not to worry about it. We really need storage so much... our house is SO tiny. I don't know what I'm going to do about that one. I've got cabin fever crazy like... even when I get to go to town, just need more to do I guess. So I need to get on the ball with other things I guess. Anyways I need to get up and get some things done around the house to keep myself from going crazy... peace out.